Just about one year ago

My grandfather got hospitalized.  It was a huge surprise because he was insanely healthy.  He went to the gym for a couple of hours each day, ate like a fucking professional athlete, and had never in his life had a single medical complication.  To make a long story short they said he needed to get his gallbladder removed and upon doing that they found a shit ton of cancer, and my healthy, amazing, wonderful grandfather was gone before the summer was over.  I was just informed that my grandmother (other side of the family) who has Alzheimer’s, has been hospitalized because she fell a few times yesterday.  They’re not really sure why she fell but they’re keeping her for observation.  I’m already losing her at a slow and painful pace, to a point where she doesn’t even know who I am or where she is half the time.  And now something else could be wrong with her.  This is supposed to be an awesome time of the year, finals week then WE OUT.  But now two years in a row this time of the year has brought with it sadness.  I don’t think this is fair at all.

Do you really want to be in love with someone?

Me: That’s a dumb question. I don’t want to be in love with someone.  I want to rediscover love, I want to hold that beauty within the bond that exists between the illusive “her” and I.  I want to create love, not be in it.

Person: Why I mean my camp friend prays for love every night. You never know.
Me: like i am so happy as i am right now, i just.  I feel this beauty inside of me. and when i feel it, i can only feel it for moments at a time, but it makes me feel like my soul is on fire. and i think this is greatest thing in the world to feel, and the only thing that has ever made me feel this way is music, and it once was love as well, and i wish to find the place in my utopia where that feeling exists as i want it and not within a mystery of musical notes.

High Five For A First Kiss

This is basically the cutest thing that I’ve ever seen.  It’s so innocent.  We are most honest when we’re young, and this little boy and girl display exactly what they feel; there’s no games between them.  It’s just so adorable and it makes you happy because personally I think it’s things like this that prove that love is real.  It just shows that love knows no boundaries and that we should all remember that “all you need is love”

Music Video Shoot

So about a week ago I participated in a music video shoot, my friends Jessi and Emily (both dancers) are doing a music video as their senior project.  They asked me to be in it because I have danced in the same studio as Jessi for a while now, I got to break so that was awesome.  We filmed for about six hours in this amazing studio; they had green screens, insane camera equipment, and all that other cool stuff.  These aren't all of the pictures, I just put some of my favorites in.  Enjoy!