Just about one year ago

My grandfather got hospitalized.  It was a huge surprise because he was insanely healthy.  He went to the gym for a couple of hours each day, ate like a fucking professional athlete, and had never in his life had a single medical complication.  To make a long story short they said he needed to get his gallbladder removed and upon doing that they found a shit ton of cancer, and my healthy, amazing, wonderful grandfather was gone before the summer was over.  I was just informed that my grandmother (other side of the family) who has Alzheimer’s, has been hospitalized because she fell a few times yesterday.  They’re not really sure why she fell but they’re keeping her for observation.  I’m already losing her at a slow and painful pace, to a point where she doesn’t even know who I am or where she is half the time.  And now something else could be wrong with her.  This is supposed to be an awesome time of the year, finals week then WE OUT.  But now two years in a row this time of the year has brought with it sadness.  I don’t think this is fair at all.

Do you really want to be in love with someone?

Me: That’s a dumb question. I don’t want to be in love with someone.  I want to rediscover love, I want to hold that beauty within the bond that exists between the illusive “her” and I.  I want to create love, not be in it.

Person: Why I mean my camp friend prays for love every night. You never know.
Me: like i am so happy as i am right now, i just.  I feel this beauty inside of me. and when i feel it, i can only feel it for moments at a time, but it makes me feel like my soul is on fire. and i think this is greatest thing in the world to feel, and the only thing that has ever made me feel this way is music, and it once was love as well, and i wish to find the place in my utopia where that feeling exists as i want it and not within a mystery of musical notes.

High Five For A First Kiss

This is basically the cutest thing that I’ve ever seen.  It’s so innocent.  We are most honest when we’re young, and this little boy and girl display exactly what they feel; there’s no games between them.  It’s just so adorable and it makes you happy because personally I think it’s things like this that prove that love is real.  It just shows that love knows no boundaries and that we should all remember that “all you need is love”

Music Video Shoot

So about a week ago I participated in a music video shoot, my friends Jessi and Emily (both dancers) are doing a music video as their senior project.  They asked me to be in it because I have danced in the same studio as Jessi for a while now, I got to break so that was awesome.  We filmed for about six hours in this amazing studio; they had green screens, insane camera equipment, and all that other cool stuff.  These aren't all of the pictures, I just put some of my favorites in.  Enjoy!

Cell Phones In Class

Hey conan,
So it's friday ... which is my day ... just kidding ... but seriously I'm so happy because I have a free right now and then academic recovery for 25 minutes and then my day is OVER.  Today I'm picking Alex up at some sonic (the drive in fast food place) at 4:30 ... usually my dad picks him up on the way home from work so this should be interesting :) So anyways ... I'd like to talk about something that happened to me in honors US history last period.  In the beginning of the year my teacher made his little speech thing and in it he talked about cell phones for a bit.  I don't really remember what he said exactly but I think it was on the lines of "if I catch you with a cellphone in my class I wont think highly of you anymore, and we wont be friends" so today i was checking something on my phone for like three seconds and the desks were arranged in two circles, one inside the other.  I was sitting in the outer circle on the opposite side from him with two people blocking his view of me, but then when I went to check one more thing on my phone I guess he saw me cause he said "bad boy austin" and I quickly put it away.  And even though there was only about 7 minutes of class left I feel like he kind of ignored me a couple times, or at least treated me in an odd way.  I'm really hoping that this was all in my head or that if it wasn't he will forget about it by Monday because I really like my history teacher and his class, and I love history.  and on top of that he and I were kind of getting to know each other in our short talks before class, so I'd hate to lose that, and I'd hate to lose the chance of getting a letter of recommendation from him if I ever needed one.  Okay well that's all for now because I have to go read something.  Until next time,

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

FRIDAY ... Camera :D

Hey Conan, so this one's gonna be short because I get out of school at 2:40 and it is 2:24 so I'm probably not going to have the time to write some long-ass thing BUT irrigardless (as GG used to say) I shall write a lil' sumthin sumthin ... anyways so today's Friday which I am obviously pumped about because its the weekend and all ... today was a good day, got my work done and all, I actually had a test first period and I aced it! I even got the extra credit because my stupid math teacher didn't realize that I'd figure out how to do the problem on my calculator which once I figured it out (less than a minute after I read the problem) I got the answer in about a minute ... whereas if I had actually done it the way he'd expected me too it would have taken maybe 10 to 12 minutes ... so that was awesome ... So I have been trying to decide for some time now, the camera that I want to get ... and yesterday I finally found the one I want, it is Nikon's D3100 

  

That's a picture incase you were wondering ... well I actaully gotta go now because I still need to post this on tumblr and stuff so i guess thats all ... until next time (I'm working on a better way to finish)

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

 

PSAT Sleeper

Hey Conan, I just finished taking my PSAT (practice SAT) it's cool cause the test cuts my day in half instead of having less classes, I have insanely short periods ergo no learning today. One extremely weird thing happened during my PSAT, there was this one kid who fell asleep within the first five minutes of the first section (reading) he then began to snore pretty loudly which was annoying and distracting but my proctor was kind of an idiot so he actually did not notice. After the time was up for the first section the proctor told us to get our calculators out and quickly gave directions on the second section (math) this kid wakes up from his nap, turns the page on his test booklet, and goes back to sleep ... snoring ... again. So a half hour later when the time limit is up for the second section we get a five minute break to go to the bathroom and stretch or whatever. The sleeper, as we shall call him, wakes up and goes to the restroom. When he comes back he goes up to the proctor and says, "I think my snoring is distracting, I don't want to take this test. Can I go home?" he then leaves. So weird right? anyways in other news my lifelong best friend got accepted early decision to the University of Pittsburgh yesterday and I am so excited for her. It's so crazy how much your life changes once you get accepted to school, especially early decision. It makes you see the real result of all your work in grade school, and it must be a huge relief to get the good news so early in the year and not be so worried / nervous for the rest of the year. Well that's all for now coco until next time...

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

...random...

Hey conan, so let me start by saying, I had written this other post but I just decided not to use it ... I'm going to just post it in brackets so it doesn't totally go to waste...

[Hey Conan, I’m going to jump right into something. I have discovered that there is a social injustice in fire drills. Now let me explain, first I’ll state the obvious. Fire drills are totally, one hundred percent, pointless. First lets say there is a fire, and the people in the building know its not a drill for arguments sake lets say an announcement was made that this was legitimate. People are going to exit the same way they would in a drill, which is also the same way they’d regularly exit the building, the only difference will be instead of being calm people will be running like hell and possibly carrying “valuable possessions” which can only make evacuating more difficult and dangerous. Now lets pretend that there really is a fire, but people think it’s a drill. The people leaving the building (keep in mind they will be calm because they think it is a drill) will not be aware of the precious seconds they have to leave; therefore they run the risk of taking too long and getting trapped inside the burning building. On top of that many of them will actually be exiting in a direction that will take them to the fire, which will cause mass panic and eventually those people will all be … for lack of a better word … screwed. So in a nutshell, a fire drill doesn’t prepare you for a REAL fire in any way. The only thing it actually does is hurt you. Fire drills actually make the chance of getting out of a flaming building worse because they give you a false sense of security. ANYONE who works or lives in a place where fire drills are the norm knows that when the alarm sounds you leave. And as individuals are exiting they are thinking about what they were in the middle of doing prior to the alarm and waiting to get back to it. If there really is a fire, and the alarm sounds, people are going to think its just a drill … because there could NEVER be a real fire right? So what I’m basically saying that fire drills are totally unnecessary. I know what you’re thinking, “Austin what does this have to do with a social injustice?” Well I’m getting to that now. Last Monday at seven thirty in the morning, the school fire alarm went off. There were about 1500 students and teachers gathered outside IN THE RAIN!]

so that's basically it ... the story pretty much ends with me spending the entire time looking for a single friend but basically unable to do so ... ergo social injustice. In other news ... I've been getting tired recently at around 11 at night, which is fine until you realize that not six months ago I could get 4 hours of sleep for 5 weeks straight and feel fine. so I'm hoping it's a growth spurt ... I'd really like a few more inches. At this moment in time I am choosing not to do two homework assighnments (both due tomorrow) the thing is that I have done a lot of work today and don't really feel like doing any more ... although I suppose i should ... maybe it's time to go ... until next time

see ya around buddy boy!

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

Brother?!

Hey Conan, it’s Monday, the dreaded Monday. But I can’t complain because the exhaustion that plagued me all last week is no more! So what I’d like to talk about today is my “brother” Alex. I put the word brother in quotes because the statement isn’t entirely, legally true, yet. So basically this summer while I was away at camp I met this kid Alex and he writes poetry just like I do, but it’s nothing like what I do. For starters, though he may deny it, he is at least one hundred times better than I. Secondly he does something called spoken word poetry. Which is basically like reciting a memorized piece that doesn’t necessarily rhyme but is set to some type of rhythm and possibly includes crazy metaphors, similes and other literary things. So to make a long story short, Alex will soon be living with me full time and go to my school AND be legally considered a member of my family. Which is pretty exciting because he is one of my best friends and now he’s going to be my brother. Alex is 16, and a junior in high school just like me, which I like because we will be taking similar classes and I have someone to talk to about my teachers and my schoolwork. So yeah, that’s all I got to say about that. Something else came to my mind when I started to write this entry. I was just finishing up some SAT work and I realized that often when I write this blog I don’t use prefect English, my punctuation isn’t perfect, my grammar isn’t exactly essay quality, and I definitely don’t use a format that would be accepted by my English teacher. But then I realized that I don’t really care about that, because I can write however I want in here BUT at the same time it’s not just about how I want to write it’s about what looks nice or is easiest to read. At the same time though I’m realizing that if I want to write in a way that is more “chilled” for me to write, then it’s more “chilled” to read. I call it … reform writing, like being a reform Jew. I don’t have to stick to all the rules as long as I get the basic idea down. Which I think I’m doing. Okay well I know this is short and all but I’m writing this during my lunch and lunch is now over and I don’t really want to stop and start later so that’s all for now, until next time I guess …

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

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New Year and a New School

Hey Conan, so I guess I haven’t written in a few months but I do have a reason. I think I mentioned in my last post that I’d be gone all summer and probably not posting, but now I’m back into the new school year so I guess I’m ready to post again. So this has been an odd week. I was in Pittsburgh last weekend with my family including my new “brother” (which I’ll explain later) and I basically got no sleep all weekend. So on Monday when I woke up I was EXAUSTED, and I mean like drained of all energy. I spent the whole day out of it and fell asleep at nine that night, well the next day it was the same thing and I started to wonder, but I figured it would just take me a couple days to catch up on sleep. So Wednesday morning when I woke up tired again after a solid 9 hours of sleep I started to get worried, then Thursday came and I finally felt a bit better, by night time I felt almost all better. Now it’s Friday and I still feel tired but I feel so much better than I have all week so I guess that’s good. Anways, LM is a brand new school, which is pretty cool, everything is state of the art and stuff. Some people don’t like it because everything looks the same; one example is that all the walls are completely white. But the administration just said it’s because until the construction crew is completely done and everything is working nothing can be put up on the walls so that everything can be accessed. It kind of makes sense so I don’t really mind. One weird thing is this no food rule, we can’t eat anywhere but the cafeteria, not even a snack, and no drinks but water. They even lock you in the cafeteria during the lunch so you can’t leave, the reasoning is that the old school had a mouse problem, so apparently they need to exterminate that school and knock it down before we are allowed to have food anywhere else. I still sneak a energy bar once in a while in between classes when everyone’s too busy rushing through the hallways to notice. So according to TBS’s website it will be about 45 days until your show is on. I really hope I can access it on Hulu or something like I could with the late night show because the only chance I get to watch anything (besides baseball) is if I do it on my time, which is quiet sporadic. Okay I guess that’s it for now, I’ll tell you about the new addition to my family in my next post.
Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

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late night study sesh

Hey Conan,

   Sorry I haven’t written in a few days it’s because things are going crazy with finals and all.  Tomorrow I have my chem final and that’s it (I should be having French as well but due to the fact that my teacher gave birth last weekend she made our test a week early) chemistry is going to be by far my hardest final.  It’s so hard that I (along with most honors chemistry students) am not trying to ace the test … I’m trying to do better than most kids so when the 20 point curve or whatever it is comes in I will have a passing grade … yes that’s the kind of test this is :/ … so for this test we are allowed to have one 8 by 11 sheet of paper with whatever we want handwritten on the front and back … I worked on it for about 10 hours today after I got out of school … well I just woke up at 3:30 in the morning and so I decided to finish it … insane I know … so right now it’s 4:15 in the morning and I’m just beginning to feel tired again … I don’t know why I woke up it’s kind of insane considering how exhausted I am … but I’m happy I got a little more studying in … not that it will help much :/ okay well that’s really it for now I’m going to attempt to sleep again … I’ll write in tomorrow for sure,

Austin Rapkin-Citrenbaum

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I'm back!

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Hey Conan so I guess I’m back … I wasn’t really ever sure if this was a permanent hiatus or what but in the last couple weeks it has been brought to my attention that actual people actually read this … so now I wanna keep going.  So the thing is that you performed in Philadelphia a couple nights ago and I didn’t go … my bad … but I know people who did and many of them have come up to me and asked if I went … they knew I liked you because of this blog … not to mention one other encounter that allowed me to know I was being read.  I like to keep it anonymous on this blog so lets just say … some asshole freshmen from my school told me he knew of this … see there’s this thing called “nuggeting” that many kids at my school do … basically empty a back pack (or any other bag for that matter) of its contents … turn it inside out … put everything back in just like it was … and then zip the inside out bag back up … so anyways this freshmen got nuggeted … and instead of taking it like a man and laughing it off like every other student (and on occasion teacher) this kid (who happens to be a scrawny geeky friendless kid who thinks he’s big, tough, and intimidating) finds the other student who did it (a class clown who is on the “short” side but everyone loves him) and pins him up against the wall? … yes I meant a question mark … so the nuggetie as we shall call him is laughing so hard while the nuggeted is getting angrier by the second.  So I do as any self respecting teen does and laugh at this kid who was just nuggeted … well he didn’t find it very funny coco … he decided to call me out on “writing to someone who doesn’t listen” I believe he said … although you don’t listen you read … silly freshmen … he also included the fact that “I’m so dumb because I can’t get into advance math class” I’m in honors grade level math which would be advance … very stupid boy … but anyways that’s the long story of how this kid knew about my writings to you.  As far as “catching up” I’m gonna go with a no go co co on that one because I feel like screw it lets just keep on going … well I’m gonna go for now Conan but I’ll talk to you soon.

Austin Citrenbaum

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Cleaning your room is fun :)

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Hey Conan, I just cleaned my room for a couple of hours and now it is SO clean.  Right when I began writing this I realized I should have taken a before and after picture that way you could see for yourself.  I’d show you the after but I don’t think you’d see the real beauty of it because you didn’t see the before.  It’s weird I have ADD you know like every other American kid but the weird part is that when I take my ADD meds and decide to do something I concentrate far greater than when I am doing something that wasn’t up to me, school for instance.  I decided to clean my room and I concentrated for two hours straight easily.  Today is the last day of my “break” the four-day weekend turned into a six day because of the lovely snow.  I heard it snowed in every state except Hawaii.  That’s pretty crazy!  Apparently we are expecting snow today/tonight and it would be amazing if we could get a late opening tomorrow because I am going to be up so very late doing all the homework I didn’t do.  That’s my next mission but I think I will break for an hour or two before I start it.  Conan I don’t know if you have seen this video but it is awesome, some guy on Youtube who calls himself “The Hair Kid” wrote a song for you and posted it.  The song is actually really good.  Here is the video; there is information about a free download in the description. 

http://tinyurl.com/conanobriensong 

I really felt like I had a lot to talk about today, in fact I still do feel like I do but at the same time I can’t think of anything.  It’s like some odd form of writers block where I can’t remember my own life.  I think I am going to start attaching some more funny stuff I find online to this blog.  So for right now I think I will show you this funny picture I found today.  I am not going to kill the joke by telling you what it is a pun of. 

I know you laughed at that because it’s really funny and why wouldn’t you laugh?  Exactly, there is no reason you wouldn’t laugh ergo you laughed.  Okay well I’m going to sign off now and do something totally meaningless instead of my homework.  I’ll write in soon.

Austin

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I HATE SNOW

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Hey Conan, now that you live in LA I’m sure you don’t have to deal with snow, but when you lived in New York I bet there were many occasions in which you got stuck.  Well incase you haven’t realized it’s snowing A LOT and EVERYWHERE!  I mean I heard it was snowing in Florida today, that’s crazy!  I have been alive for sixteen and a half years and I don’t know of any time that has ever happened, it probably hasn’t since Larry kings ice age days.  The point is, we had about two feet of snow last Friday/Saturday and we had another foot and a half in between Tuesday/Wednesday.  Needless to say there is SO MUCH SNOW.  So tonight my dad and I went to Nana and Pops (grandparents) to help pop take the TV in him and Nana’s bed room down because he is getting a new one.  We also had dinner.  So it was about nine when we left and although the roads have been plowed there was still a lot of slush and snow and ice on the ground.  So I’m driving OF COURSE and my dad keeps telling me to keep the speed up so that his rear wheel drive car doesn’t stop around a corner.  Well wouldn’t you know it I slip around a corner and the whole car goes off the road and onto some grass, there was more than a foot of snow underneath and surrounding our car.  So first thing we try is reversing, tires sliding everywhere we go NOWHERE.  We were lucky because we were less than a quarter mile down the road so we ran back to my grand parents house, my uncle Mike and his family were still there.  Let me explain my uncle mike, he is the kind of guy that has EVERYTHING you will EVER need.  He was leaving when we ran up to the house so he drove his car with us and his family inside to where our car was and he took a shovel out of his car (OF CORSE HE HAS A SHOVEL IN HIS CAR) I start digging and he says he is sorry he doesn’t have his car because that car has all kinds of cables in it for towing that we could use.  So I dig for a few minutes (freezing my ass off if may I add) and then we tried pushing, my uncle, dad, and I got in front of the car while my aunt reversed; NOTHING yet again.  So my uncle says, okay I’ll drive home and get my Jeep ill be back as soon as possible, so we stay there with the shovel and start digging.  Eventually a car drives by and it’s a man and is (wife?) the man says he lives right there and would be glad to lend a hand.  So he lets his wife drive the car to there home which is legitimately across the street and he digs for a second and then him and my dad get in front of the car while I drive, NOTHING.  We do some more digging and try again but still nothing.  So we thank the man and tell him that my dad’s brother is coming for us and we will be fine, he leaves.  So we then get in the car and begin to wait.  My Motorola Droid cell phone has you tube access so I show my dad this AMAZING comedian Jo Key and my uncle eventually shows up just past ten.  I spent the next twenty minutes face down in the snow attaching this cord thing and eventually we got the car out.  Man was it a crazy night.  When I got home I had a wonderful shower and then it was soon midnight and I called Mariel because today (the 13^th not the 12^th) is her birthday and I wanted to be first.  Now I’m writing to help me relax and I think I’ll go watch some you tube.  Have a good night Conan talk to you in a day or two.

Austin

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FONTS ARE AWESOME

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Hey Conan, it’s about two in the morning as I’m beginning to write this and I don’t know how long it will take me to post it, but I suppose before two thirty.  So I really wanted to write in tonight but by the time I realized I wanted to write in I was getting really tired so I decided not to.  Then something amazing happened, like a Christmas miracle I found a new font WHICH I LOVE! And I just couldn’t resist writing with this font; it has inspired me to blog at two in the morning.  HORAY!  I’m not sure if my blog will be posted with this font (because as usual I’m writing this in word first) but either way I can enjoy the way it looks on my word document before I post it.  I found this font because of Stumble upon, it brought me to a website with 45 amazing fonts and I downloaded this one, although I may be downloading more in the near future.  Here is the sight:

http://naldzgraphics.net/freebies/45-most-wanted-beautiful-free-hand-drawn-fonts/ 

Check it out it’s really awesome!  So today was actually a pretty good day, I woke up early even though I didn’t have school because I wanted to be sweet and text Mariel first thing that way she had me while she was at school.  By 11:30ish I had woken up enough to go out and shovel which I did for about an hour while texting Maddy and Alexa.  Maddy and I ended up meeting at the local Starbucks, I walked its about a ten minute walk for me so it was no big deal.  Maddy’s mom drove her and she met me there, we got some food and some stuff to drink (I got tea) and then when we finished we walked back to my house and hung out for a while, it was loads of fun I LOVE hanging out with Maddy.  So Maddy left at about six and after that I went down the street for Tobie’s (my little cousin) birthday party.  Today was her twelfth birthday and my aunt had the whole family along with some family friends over for Tobie.  It was good fun although I went home early to relax and talk to people online.  Well that’s about it for tonight.  I’ll post back maybe tomorrow if not then the next day. 

Austin

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UPDATE

Conan I haven’t posted in way too long, and there’s no excuse, I've just been lazy and I'm sorry.  I am also sorry to say this wont be a long post considering its almost 2:30 as I am beginning to write this and I am getting up at 9 to text Mariel because although I have no school tomorrow she only has a two hour delay and I don't want her to be lonely.  Anyway I think Ill just give you a tiny synopsis of the last week.  School has been fine, a bit stressful but fine, we had a HUGE snowstorm last Friday/Saturday and there was so much snow we had a two-hour delay on Monday.  Due to presidents weekend we have a half-day Thursday and Friday off for this week, but because of another snowstorm that began last night we have a six-day weekend!!!  I am happy to say I have continued to post a poem every day, even though sometimes-past midnight but I don't think that matters, I mean it is my blog isn't it.  That’s what my big sister Sammy says, she has her own blog and she’s actually been noted in magazines and stuff and she gets paid to advertise, but she always says, its her blog if she doesn't want to post for a week she doesn't have too, no one can tell her what to do about her own damn blog.  She says the same for me.  And she’s right.  Sammy is really smart about stuff like that, common sense stuff.  She always sees right through the bullshit.  Okay Conan sorry to cut it short but I am going to go to bed, night!

Until next time (hopefully not too long)

Austin

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Life is really complicated

Hey Conan, I know being a teenager is supposed to be confusing and often upsetting.  I understand that everyone has rough spots when they are growing up.  And I know that they all say that their problems are so original, but I really think mine are just different.  I’m not necessarily saying that what I’m going through is so different than any of the other billions of people that have grown up; I’m saying that my issues are not too common and my circumstances are extremely original.  For instance, I don’t want to go into my long list of problems but it’s the fact that my friends are so far away from me, that I don’t have friends here and the ones I do have live too far away.  It’s really tough because I am dealing with so many “social” issues on top of all my life issues.  Some of my problems are general teenager problems like school being tough and parents being annoying on occasion or even my on coming insomnia, but other problems that I have are more original like the fact that I am dealing with things way beyond my maturity level.  There is a person in my life, who used to understand better what was wrong and this person would do anything to fix it.  This person is having some issues of their own right now and some of them are caused by me, the thing that this person doesn’t realize is that they are making so many negative choices that are not helping them feel better and are definitely making it worse for me.  The worst part is that things have gotten way better over the past week and my two month depression seems to have come to an end, but I feel that nothing I do will make it any better for some time and that really sucks.  Although I am no longer unable to sleep or eat or think, I still have trouble sleeping and concentrating and I can barley eat, and the only way it can be fixed is not with my actions.  I know what I have to do to move it along but I also know that I cannot fix it by myself and I just don’t see it getting fixed at least this week.  It’s so hard to really think into the future, but if I try to I just don’t see it getting better for at least 3 maybe 4 weeks and that’s a long time.  I am hoping to improve it a bit during this week and weekend but I just cannot be sure.  That’s all for now I need to go work or something to relax my mind.  Until next time

Your fan,
Austin

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Backpacks are heavy

Hey Conan, so its 7 in the morning as I’m writing this and I am running on about four hours of sleep but for some reason I just want to write in right now.  So this entry may sound a little weird but that’s just because I am a bit delusional right now.  Anyway I’m sitting in the hallway right now and kids are just starting to get to school and I’m thinking about backpacks.  Some kids are the kind of kids who have HUGE backpacks that are literally bursting at the seams.

Last year for some time I was one of these kids, I suppose they did what I did which is always having a couple of my textbooks on hand.  Towards the middle of last year I realized that maybe having an extra twenty pounds in my bag was hurting me more than it was helping me.  What all of these over achievers need to realize is that they are not any better of a student just because their bags are overflowing and backbreaking.  It’s about what you do with what you have not getting everything you can and hoping that helps.  Now these kids aren’t the only ones with backpack issues.  Some kids are what we will call, “under achievers” in the backpack area.  These kids either have the tiniest backpacks that hardly have anything in them or even drawstring bags that are practically empty.

These kids are usually the kind of kids with no organization so they have their schoolwork for the day along with some writing utensils, or something of that nature.  If you have been in high school you know that you need a binder for all of your five major classes at the least, not to mention the fact that every student at my school has a laptop.  In conclusion, I think that all students should fall somewhere in the middle just like I do.  Your bag should under no circumstances be back breaking, but it should be heavy.  I feel that a normal size backpack should be full, not bursting but not light as a feather.  Expect to be carrying twenty to thirty pounds its no big deal you’re supposed to be a healthy teenager right?  Well Conan first period starts in a few minutes so I have to go.  I’ll write in soon,

Your never fleeting fan
Austin

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Life takes a turn

Hey Conan, so my life’s made a full 180 and everything seems to be going great now.  Well everything’s getting better there’s a couple things that are changing but they are going to take more than a day to change.  To be honest everything that has changed I never thought it would be able to change in such a short amount of time.  So I am very happy.  First of all my Michael Jackson “This Is It” DVD came in the mail Wednesday and I have watched it twice!  It’s so awesome.  I also got these new shoes, well not too new.  My friend Jake got them about a year ago but he’s only worn them twice and he grew out of them, he’s a shoe guy and shoe guys wear shoes only a few times.  Regardless the shoes are really flamboyant and I really love that.  Here they are:

    So right now I’m relaxing and watching a movie, just trying to relax for the night.  In fact I think ill go and do so now.  Talk to you soon,

Austin

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midterms are over but my troubles are just begining

Hey buddy boy! So today I finished my midterms, French was my last one.  It was really tough but I think I will have a B on it so I am just very happy it’s over.  Don’t want to talk about my life right now because it keeps getting crazier and harder, as I am sure yours is.  Although I bet you love spending time with your family.  So there is some exciting news.  My big sister Sammy and I talk all the time, and about everything.  Well a couple of nights ago she was trying to cheer me up at 1:30 in the morning and I decided I was going to mess with this guy who she knows.  So I get is screen name and he doesn’t know who I am and I start explaining to Sammy how he is typing and then he stops and starts again, which you can see because there is an indicator of when your chat buddy is talking.  So I said to her that he would type something, then delete it and maybe even type and delete again before sending his message.  I said it was because I was getting too him and he was trying to figure out how not to show it.  So anyway Sammy says to me, “Austin, you should right a book” and I laugh and say that it’s appealing but I never can think of anything meaningful to right about.  Now Sammy and I both enjoy writing and we have countless interesting conversations.  So today I was sitting in class after I had finished my midterm and I was thinking about what I had said to her last night that made her tell me to write a book.  I decided to write a book about living, about what its really like in a completely true format, and to open myself up a bit.  I don’t want to make it a book about how horrible it is being a teen, or how great because both of those things are not true.  I want it to be about being a teenager and problems we all confront, and the right way to handle those problems.   I don’t even know if I will finish the book ever, but as of now I’m starting it, and I’m kind of excited.  Well that’s all for now Coco I’ll write in again soon

Austin

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